Be a Student
Proverbs 12:1 Whoever
loves discipline loves knowledge, but he who hates reproof is stupid.
This verse is a pretty good summery of a big lesson God has
been showing me here during my time in IGNITE. Coming here I had the mindset
that leadership and staff should just trust me with things and that because
they were checking up on me in things, they didn’t trust me. I thought I had the discipline already to do
so. I realize now they were completely right. Reproof and correction are
something I used to really struggle with that I didn’t even realize was an area
of sin. Because reproof can hurt. It hurts to disappoint people, it hurts
knowing that I did wrong and that I need correction. But its only human for me
to sin and make mistakes, I cannot be perfect. I hate disappointing people. But
where does that hatred come from? I used to think that it came from the Lord
but something He’s revealed to me is that’s those feelings often stem from
self-consciousness which is once again self. I used to bemoan rebukes and being
corrected and just dwell on my mistakes and see myself always as a liability
and become to distracted to see the asset that I could be to the Lord if I
would just surrender myself to Jesus. I hated correction because I wouldn’t see
the fruits that came from it and the growth in my relationship with Jesus. But I should be glad when I’m reproved
because it teaches me how to serve Him better. But these rebukes and the pain I
feel can be growing pains. It hurts to be broken and to disappoint, but I can
rejoice in these pains because I know He will use them to draw me closer to
Him.
Application: I will pray for a heart open to correction and
understand that these can bring me closer to Him.
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